Yesterday I noted on social media how frustrated I am with the common
evangelical lingo of saying, “I’m struggling with…” fill in the blank
with some persistent sin, anything from gossip to jealousy to
pornography. I suppose there’s probably been someone out there who has
said, “I’m struggling with serial killing,” or “I’m struggling with s*x
trafficking,” though I haven’t met that person yet.
I’ve
noticed that way too often “I’m struggling with…” language seems to
really mean “I don’t like the fact that I like doing this sin that I’m
going to keep doing, no matter what.” In that sense, “I’m struggling”
becomes a more spiritual sounding way of saying what a woman once told
me about her explosive anger fits, “Well, that’s just how I am.” Often,
this language comes up in discipleship settings with believers caught in
some pattern or in marriages in crisis. When confronted with a pattern
of disobedience, someone will say, “Well, yes, I struggle with addictive
gambling,” or “I struggle with straying from my wedding vows.”
There’s
something really right with the impulse here. “Struggling” is a good
biblical metaphor. After all, “Israel” is a word that comes from Jacob
struggling with God by the riverside. The Apostle Paul tells us we
“wrestle” not with flesh and blood but with principalities and powers in
the heavenly places. The language of fight is all over Scripture.
What’s also right is that God tells us that we should never see
ourselves as free from sin. We should know not only that we are sinners
but also that we should know where our specific points of vulnerability
are.
It does me no good to spend a lot of time studying how to
manage fits of anger, unless I’m doing so to help someone else. My anger
runs cold, not hot. I’m tempted not to combust in fury but to harbor
bitterness. If I were to spend a lot of energy thinking about how to
rein in an out-of-control temper I would just end up with a smugness
about how easy it is to do that. It’s easy for me, but maybe not for
you.
really, really vulnerable to sin and to self-deception. Saying “I’m
struggling with” something could be a confession of an area that needs
constant guarding in someone’s life. It might be the equivalent of
Johnny Cash’s “I keep a close watch on this heart of mine; I keep my
eyes wide open all the time” applied to some area of life.
But
I’ve noticed that too often that’s not what we mean. We use “I’m
struggling” often not as a sign of brokenness, or a cry for help, but as
a conversation-stopper. It becomes the equivalent of a cable company
telling the family without service, “Yeah, we’re working on that,” just
to get the complainers off the phone, or a robber telling the police
with the search warrant, “Move on along; there’s nothing to see here.”
If
you use the language of “struggling,” you should actually be
struggling. That should mean that you are seeking the way of the Spirit
to escape from your sin (1 Corinthians 10:13), that you are removing
every possible obstacle to your overcoming this pattern (Matthew 18:9),
and that you are relying on others in the Body of Christ to hold you
accountable and to shepherd you out of it (Galatians 6:1-4). “I’m
struggling” shouldn’t be a way to end interrogation but to ask for it.
“Struggling”
is good biblical language. We’re all either struggling with sin or
surrendering to it. But we should use the language the way the Bible
does. Instead we want all too often to use spiritual language for carnal
ends. We should resist such temptation.
[written by Russell Moore]
